how many tym shud i stated here? tat i am not ANOREXIC!
y shud u spread out the rumours n disgrace me?
fils like i wana slap ur pretty face n make u feel pain..
but y shud i?
i dun tink its worthy to waste my tym argueing with a childish person like u!

FYI..
i eat regularly...n i never do diet!
i dun fear of gaining my weight!
i took some vitamin n medication to GAIN MY WEIGHT instead..
dun tell me to go c the doctor coz i did tat b4,
n i still got the same answer tat i haf a super high metabolism rate
tat make its hard for me to gain my weight!

i never like tis thing..
i mean my weight!
i do feel like i wana eat evrything just to make me gain sum weight!
but i was wrong coz it will nevr happend!
plus,i shud eat healthy..not randomly..
which can lead me to unhealthy life
its not tat i want it..
everynyt i do pray for god to help me become more gmuk..
so dun u tink tat im asking for tis..

i hate it wen people came to me n said tat my waist n wrist is too small...
i dun ask for it ok?
i tried so hard to make it bigger n more chubby but tis stupid mtblsm dun let me..
so plis stop telling me tat..
coz i do concern..
im just tired of trying..

anyway i shud be so thankfull to haf my family n frens who accepted me the way i am
without any complain...
coz they knew me myself oso dislike tis weight issues..
n they knew tat ive tried my best ody..

watsoever..
i still love my body...
eventho its not too curvy like wat u got there..
but at least i have pair of legs
pair of hands..
complete fingers..
cute small butt n breast..
i appreciate it alot..
tehre still alot of people out there who didnt haf legs or hands..
then y shud i complain?
this weight issues will soon be gone..

last but not least..
im 42 kg's..
height 152
skinny..
petite..
n not pretty at all..
but i love myself!

p/s : thank u for loving me..=)

i shud be leaving for dreamland by now,
but i cant..
sumthing makes me giggles all nyt..
sum1 texting me,
she told me such a funny story..
bout how i dun deserve to be sum1 gf..
just bcoz of my past..
yeah...who cares if i join tat stupid punk rock band or skinhead b4?
its just my childish perception la..
plus,im too young to tink matured...
ol tat i noe is tat im too rebellious n i nid a channel to let my anger out!
she even said tat im too harsh coz both of my tragus was pierced...omg..
totally dumb la u girl!
getting my ear pierced doesnt mean tat im a harsh person!
y did u become such a narrow minded person?
issit u came from kampung site?
em ti siu lor..

im not ashamed with my childhood memories...
coz tat thing teach me to be a better person now la..
at least i noe how important education is,
instead of lepak-ing or gai2 around town the whole day

plus,who r u to judge me..?
just bcoz ure not a grunge,punk or skinhead followers,
doesnt mean ure a holy person!
at least people dont tell tat im a cheap girl like they did to u..

he luf me for who i am.
n he told me tat if i love sum1,we must love erything bout tat person, no matter the loveable or not loveable site..
he noes my past.. n he dun care
i also noe wat he did b4..
but it doesnt matter..
coz wat matter now is OUR FUTURE TOGETHER..
a dumb blackhair girl like u dun make any difference..
ure just a lunatic tat wana c a strong relationship fall down...
but u mess up wit the wrong 1 girl..
idc n i dun gve a damn bout wat u said..
i used to be an innocent young girl..
but now im a lady! i noe how to treat uneducated perfson like u wit manners..
n it started with tis---> thank u!

dun bother my life,or others..
u better spent sum tym to look on urself n decided,
how to chnge urselfto be a better person.

;lotsa love.
sandra xoxoxo

love-syndrome

its funny..

thinking how love can chnge me..
unfaithfull.anger.rush.unpatience.unsweet.choosy.moody.
to
loyal.love.slowly.patience.sweet.happy.

wen im here,
u refuse to show me how much u care bout me..
n tats wat makes me AWKWARD to c u ..
evrytime u wait me at the airport..
we dun do hug2 n kis2 n excited face wen seeing each other..
we just dont..
we treat each other like strangers..
i dun talk to u,i just let u hold my bags..
n i walk faster then u..
in ur car,we still x talking to each other..
i refused to..
i'll be looking at my hp..
bz chting wit my girls..
n u will just focus on ur driving
this thing conti till we reach the traffic light..
its wen u hold my hands n ask me
`how are u'
n tats our 1st conversation...
the rest,we will start treating each other like gf/bf
its funny....
but tats wat happend since im here..

its not tat we x love each other..
its just tat..wen im here..
ur `iduncareyou' attitude makes me builing up a wall between us..
n tats wat making me feel awkward wen we c each other..
im sory...
i really do..
i just x tink im ready to be love wen im there,n neglected wen im here..
but still...i love u LVS

neither do us

ive been checking my blog n i got 1 comnt tats need to be moderated..
its from sum1 who call herself anonymous..but been trying to tell me tat she was the real sandra syn
shes been asked me to explain how can i get tat name...-----> SANDRASYN

now i'll make it clear to you..
pay more attention here darling..
my real name is CASSANDRA n my bf real name is LO VUN SYN
so i just came up to the idea to combine it n whuallla...i got tis ~~> SANDRASYN

but since my fren told me tat `my name' connected to a porn link, so ive changed my blog name to ~~> STARVIESYN

if tats bother u so much,go get a legal licence on copyright...
its just coincidence darling,not even a plagiarism...
tink wat u want,coz were in a free country...
but watch bfre u speak..
u duno how much its gona affect other people..

p/s : gud luck with ur p**n site

lotsa love~~
~~san~~
xoxoxo

V-days

wen im far from u...
u rily cant accept it..
u duno how to show me tat u stil love n care bout me..
tats y we often argue...
still rember the day tat i told u i was sick..
u still wana act like u x k ..

but after few minutes u ody col n ask me to eat medicine,
take care myself n say tat u love me..
<3 ure so sweet bb<3

alot of things happend..yeah.. ol those scndalous things appear in our relationship..
but i dun blame u 100% thou..
as im not pefect neway..
i noe u r lonely..but i never did giing my attention to u..
im sorry..



but im glad tat we go thru it b..
as i said before...
i love u wat happend before is the past..
i am ur future.. wat matter the most is now..=)
only 19 days left to c u..
i noe u will treat me like a princess again...
pampered me ol day but then blame me wen im being childish here..
if u x give me ur attention,
lolz u spent alot ody for me without asking..
wen im mad,u just said tat u wana be responsible for me.
. u want sum1 to take k of..
thnx syg..but do kip ur salary for urself k?
words cant describe wat u meant to me
if i wana talk bout u,it will never end..
too many things to share..
but i just wana let u noe tat i love u b..
i love ur flawless, ur mistakes, ur family , ur silly attitude,
ur stubborness n ur workaholic gaya.. i love u lo vun syn.. owez..

xoxoxo

cheerish

i sudnly became sad..
i duno why...
it seems like too many problems come towards my frens
feka just col n said tat she had sum probs wit her bf
now V also got prob wit her frens..
allen also like tat..
teryna also like tat tat..
nurul n boy too...urgh
im sau pa xing..
i tink i bring sadness to other people life..

i duno y i can tink like tis,but maybe bcoz tat day..
1 of my ex-bff told me tat im a bad luck..n i shudnt be frens with any1..
coz i only will bring up some trouble..
maybe she is true..
but y?

i wish i can help evry1
solve their prob..
but i oso got too many thing to feel depressed..
i just became good with my gf agen..
yah..its been thru alot of hurting conversation between us..
but i dun haf any1 to share with..
i only haf tis blog of mine..
as i got inspiration reading thru other peoples life n problems..

anyway..
im still in forgiving process now..
yah ..towards tat sum1 who i used to feel mad..
but i never meant to said like tat to her,
i just x undstnd y she treat me like tat..

but its ol been erased in my mind ody...
she luf me n i luf her too..
frens is more omptnt then anythng..

p/s : iLy sasa

20 september 2008
the 1st steps we take..
n now..

its been 2 years,4 months ,2 weeks n 3 days with u syg..
never tot we can last til now..
everybdy's waiting for our separation..
but im blessed by ur love..
everyday of my life..
thank you~ <3

words cant describe how much u meant to me..
but for sure im gona miss the fight n breakups we made ol tis years..
coz it makes me stronger..
n luf u more each day..
p/s : iLy 4ever LVs