10 dec 2009

20 sept 08
1st time u ask me to be urs..
funny...but sweet..^^

coz i owez tot tat ure just a spoiledmumy'sboy
*sorry B*

its been 2 years 5 months now..
not a big numbers to be show off..
but since ure the most stubborn n complex guy i ever been with..
its sumthing tat i can be proud of..

n yess!
u annoyed me sometym...
a real goofy n clumsy...
u can be heartless sometyms...
since u can haf everythng u want..
sometimes u did 4get how to apcte all the things tat u got..
`mean' wen its cums to jealousy..
play pretend u x love me wen i make u mad
stubborn like h*LL

my punching bag ^_^

but nooo...
its not the real u...
its just ur alter ego..
ure a crying baby sumtyms..
u nid me to pick up the right clothes 4 u wen we go shpng
u nid me to remnd u how hard it is to simpan $ wen u spndg it like crazy
u nid me to get mad at u wen u act a lil stupid
u nid me to remind u tat ur car is not importnt then me n ur fam
u nid me to tell u how much ur family luf u everytym u feel like they dont
u nid me to pack ur stuff anytym we go on vacay'
u nid me to play with ur hair to make u asleep
u nid me to hug u wen we argue
u nid me to lauf at u wen ur jokes dun make no sense
u nid me to tell u everyday how much iLY n wait 4 me
but we're even..
i nid u more the u nid me..
*sorry*

tats y i still wait 4 u monkey!
it brokes my heart to left u alone there..
n hear u complain
`susah o mau buat ni,tula u xda cni,susah o mau bgni,panas o,mau sakit oh..bla..bla..bla'

but u love me 4 me..
n tats wat i respect bout u..
never been a day u complain bout how i look, how many pimples i had,how skinny i've been
*thnk u for loving me n my FLAWS*



like u said..age is just a number ^^

cherry on top

here i am...
back into my college life.....missing sum1 alot...
families n frens...*aily,chy,vian*

my midsem break was awesome!
having my own ups n down...but i manage to get myself
a tym to relax..(despite of all the assignment)

lifes been great....
goin out wit my bf..
c his new house..n totally in love with it!
i guess its only bcoz he has his own room wit his own bthrum..
which means more privacy ahead ^_^

goin out yam cha wit my darling , aily n chy2..
so funny tat we manage to laugh ourself out no matter wat topic we had there,haha
totally ngam channel..=)
*ty babes*

so his mum was nagging bout how fast i owez wana go bek home...
rather then spending sum tym there...
finally i decided to spend 1 nyt at his house..
been wasting our tyms watching his fav.cartoon --> Lion King! awww...
n watch him playing games till i fall asleep.. -__-zZzZzZz


i love watching u plying games..it makes me sleepy ..haha
the next day was totally lame...
as im goin back hum to pack my bags for leaving..
wen im finish im goin out again to take sum photo wit mr.yellow ^^
it was extremely big!


mr.992C



after tat go straight to take a nap at his house, till 5pm only i woke up...
urgh!
it was tooooo cozy..
making its hard for me to open my eyes..
6pm,im leaving to kk..
bye2 kgau..
hug his mumy for goodbye =(

there..
i felt a lil bit emotional...yeah..
coz i can feel tat i will be bek to kl in a few hours..
but he still sabar wit my childish gaya..
*ty bb*

wen i cry at his house 5 hours before leaving..
he just lay beside me...blur i guess..coz ive been crying so hard..like usual >.<

wen i calm down n stop crying..he took a towel n sat behind me..asking me to sniff out ol my hingus,hahahaha
aww..i felt so kna syg..
just like my father used to do back wen i was a child..
*happy baby*

tats y at the airport i stop cyring n give him my warmth smile..
i dun wana make him wory bout me like before..
i can c he was happy to c me a lil bit hapy again..
*ty avui n jojo*


wen im at kl... hes goin out clubbng wit his fren
but he still manage to find me very hour..
the best part of it,
was wen he admit tat he luf me so much
n ol tat breakup thing n idontloveuanymore was a total lie..
he just do tat to take my attention..
=)
i love him more then he ever knew..
hope 1 day he will notice tat..



iLyFLVS

2 days more

will be going bek soon..
hate it so much...
every1 is bz!
mumy at kk,
my bro is working..bf oso working..
n im left alone at home..
hate it!

ive got a plan..meeting my darling aily tomorow,
but i havent confirm yet since chy2 also nid to go work at the noon..
plus bf havnt ge the green light yet! hopefully yes! *crossing finger*

everythng doesnt seem ryt now..
im toooooo sensative...
everytm hes making fun of me,or even making me jeles on purpose..
im gona be extremely mad +sad = cried
i hate myself now..y i owez haf to be so weak wen hes around
like i cant stand up 4 myself..?
everythng also nid his help!

since they move to the new house..
he seldom go to my house n spent tym..
i do unstnd bout tat minyak thing..
but i do nid sum attention from him

mornig hes working,so we just hang around togther at nyt...
its like a long way to go my house..but he insist..
n i just let it..
i do wana spnt my tym wit him

goin to his house to meet his mum..*miss u aunty*
feels warmth wen she give me a hug n kiss,feels like im welcome there..=)
spending the tym wit his granma..n watching movie wit bf ..

he asked me today..
as he watchd me playing games on his comp..
y i haf to be soooo sensative tis few days?
urgh! wish i had an answer for tat myself syg!
maybe i just miss the day he will treat me like a baby..
yeah..since he was too bz wit his work..
i was left behind..
i just making stupid faces..
he laugh..n we forgt bout it..
easy~~~

still haf 2 days left..
gona apcte tis days like i never will..
got alot of things to do..
but im done with 1 of my assgmnt ^___^

but still..the 1st thing i wana do on saturday morning..
is goin out for breakfast with him..
i need Sau mai ASAP..
miss it alot!

but tomorow i will be staying at his house for 1 day..
at least im not gona miss him alot tomorw nyt..


missing my frens n family..^^
will meet soon *muahx*

one i never forget

1st..we dun talk too much..yeah..
n u left me alone waiting 4 u at the airport...
the way u treated me was so cold..like sumthing bothering us..
luckily boy2 accompany us..if not things gona be like wwe inside ur car..
stop at kfc, boy2 go down to buy sum food..
n u say HI!..
BUT JUST NOODED MY HEAD..
COZ I FEEL AWKWARD...
like i never knew u my whole life..
soory =(

arrive ur hum..
n i still refuse to talk to u..
my heart still painfull
for wat u haf done to me..
i noe its just ur ways to get my attention..
but it do hurt me alot..
sorry fer the 2nd tym =(

taking my bath..
n u eating downstairs...
after bath,i go straight to take a nap..
u showed up..
wana hug me..
but i move to the next bed..
u asking y shud i move ?
i answer `i just wana take a nap'
so mean...n so not me...
but i guess heartache tat leads me to do tat..
sorry fer the 3rd tym =`(

still...
u wna slip with me...
so u move again..n started to hug me...
i refuse..
but u insist..
n u told me u miss me...
n there we r..
lying next to each other..hugging n slipping till nyt..
*thank you *


after ol tis tym weve been apart..
still i love u VERY MUCH!
its not about wat u got, but is how u care the littlest thing bout m...
sumthing tat others tink less-important 4 me..
*thank you again*

i noe things gona be like before wen im goin bek later..
but as im still here..
i wana spent lots of tym wit u..
i wana appreciate the tym we have to be 2gther..
sumtym less is more...
as long as we love each other..n still stand strong together..
there nothing i wud ask for more...
*thank you lo vun syn*

sumtyms i can be so mean towards u,yeah,both of us did..
we talk nasty n get mad to each other..
sumtym u told me tat u x luf me n dun nid me at all,
i just accept it..
coz the truth is..wen im bek..
ure still gona hugg me n tell me how much u miss n luf me wen im there..

im still in process to figure outwat kind of relationship we haf here ..
maybe its the toughest 1 i ever had..
but i dun regret it..
coz ure the best i ever had..
*i love you! yeah u stubborn syn!*

so tis is me..
swallowing my pride..
standing in front of you...
saying im sorry for that night..T_________T


lotsa love
san