`beautifull faces is nothing compares to a beautifull heart... coz beautifull heart last forever'
-joanna john-

`let he that is without sin, throw a stone to her '

-bible quote-

blast off~~~`

thanx for a meaningfull + happenig + crazy + enjoying vacation wit u ol guys!
NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE IT..
n i am S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S.

im gona miss u ol..xpcly YOU...

thanx for :
-making shes happy on her bday
-making me happy for 2 days
-mabuk ramai2
-happy ramai2
-slippy ramai2
-bising ramai2
-main kejar2 inside the pool
-making us wearing tat muslimah `bikini's' haha
n lastly thnakx for everything...love u ol guys!





mopongou FOREVER!!!!
xoxoxo

thanx dady...

<3 <3

Sometimes in the daily challenges that life gives us, i miss what is really important. i may fail to say hello, please, or thank you, congratulate y something wonderful that has happened to you, give a compliment, or just do something nice for no reason. So now i say..---> i love u daddy!! ure the best daddy in this world!

if only i could~~`

teach me how to face u wen im there..
i dun tink im as strong as chy2...i cant accept the fact tat i'll be seeing u as my FREN
tis tym...it really happends.....
i dun tink its a joke....
ive cried so hard til i dun even rembr tat i haf exams 2moro...
the way u treat me after tonyt was totally different..
its like ure a different person....
u mad im msgng wit my frens..but do u recall the day wen u msg HER?
do u even noticed how i feel?
no u dun ryt?
but still im standg there....still loving u n aceptg u...
ur flawless n human-less...


im s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s
i just noe tat i didnt do any wrongs...
will i get used myself to the new environment now?
hope so......i just wish tat i can be as far as i can be from u..
i just cant stand to c u wit sum1 else...
i really cant....
the only reason im taking thousnd steps away from u after tis...
is bcoz...i love u soo much...
always..LVS

helpless wen he smiles..

i hate my unstable mind ryt now.......

everything seems unclear...
my mind,heart...n my feelings...
i used to be so confident in our relationship....
now not nemore...
sumtym i dun even noe who u r....
to asked myself `y i loved u' at the 1st place,
the answers is not synchronized anymore...
we look so attached wen we r together...
like nothing can tear us apart...
like we'll never leave each other forever...
like we never hate n cursed each other..
it makes me feel UNREAL bout tis...
the fact tat u only LOVE me wen im near...
doesnt make any sense at all..
but ive became immune to it dear...

this hesitation makes me scared of everything....
the possibility to FALL IN LOVE WIT SUM1 ELSE..
to being happy wit sum1 else....
being appreciated by sum1 else...
coz all of tat doesnt make me `stays wit u'
i am scared of the impact u might feel wen were not togther nemore...
but sumtym i cant lie to myself anymore ...
i cant owez be silent wen u do sumthing wrong to me...
i've giving u too may chances oredy...
n the part wer u make me feel im notgoodenuf for u...


i appreciate every little things u do....
but i dun get ur feedback~ n tats useless...
ure not the person tat i used to love before...
i love tat u've changed...but it lead us to nowhere...
ur promises doesnt last longer...im getting tired of believing it..
or convincing myself tis will gt any better...
but do i haf a say in tis?
i dont....
coz u never listen...

heartbroken.breaking into pieces.anger.painfull.sadness.confused.

i just noe for sure tat i love u....owez....






but im helpless wen HE smiles....

lovely angels

first of all,i wana say --->thank u for spamming my fb msges...
wat makes u hate me so much? u dun even noe me..u jkust adress me as `senior'?
btw,my name is CASSANDRA!
spamming my wall at the 1st tym is kinda okay,coz u still haf the manners..
but tat msges u sent to me,was unpleasent to hear...
wats wrong wif u dear? did i step on ur tail?
bout tat boy thingy..hes just my fren...
he never say tat he loves me...neither do i!
grow up la k? stop hiding behind tat fb acc n show urself...
i noe u love him soooo much..y dun u tell him urself?
i dun wana talk much,coz its totally annoying to deal wit sum1 like u..
anyway,thnx for fbing wit me. n stop spreading rumours bout me infront of his frens.

p/s : i've blocked ur acc owdy..=)

my guardian angel~~

today was a lil bit special for me...
eventho sumthng make me upset..but still i am hapy bcoz i've got wat ive olwes wanted in life..
its like a miracle to me...
well its only 8 days left till final exam..
n yeah ..i am so tense....
thinking bout studying makes me sick...
but today we got classes..n im not really sure wat happend,but i feel gloomy all of a sudden...
but sumthing happends...
im rily hurt..but i noe i dun haf the right to talk about it..
im not worthy...
i was...sitting alone oustside of my class...counting the days wen i will be going bek hum again....
n suddenly....she pass me by....n stop...
i didnt notice her till she came towards me and ask me `are u alrite?'
i was like---> yabah...ofkoz im ok..napa?
n she said nothing..but just give me a smile....n she ask me to wait for her...(dia p tandas lu)
by tat tym i was kinda blur...in my head kip saying `napa dia suruh saya tunggu ah? '
but stil im waiting patiently...
wen she sat next to me...she tell me tis `

last nyt...sum1 told me a story....
there was a lil boy n a women...
they sit on a grass,talking bout sumthng...
tat boy ask tat women how to get a gud fren in life...
the bestest 1...
tat women told him to do exactly wat she saidd...
the boy just nooded...
the women ask him to pick the nicest grass on the field..
but he can only moving foward..and cannot looking back...
so the boy went to his search..
wen he came back,he holds nothng on his hands....
then the women ask him, `y u haf an empty hands/'
the boy answered..
`i went for the search just now...n i c many beautifull grass...but u ask me to look for the nicest 1...
so i keep on searching..without noeing tat ive reach the end of the field '
maybe ithe nicest 1 is on my back..but u tell me not to looking back..tats y im coming bek wit an empty hands'
the women just smile n said `tat is the answer for ur question...in life...wen we found
sum1 nice..dun ever wanted to find sum1 else much better then tat person...apcte them
n never let them go..
because we cannot turn back the tym...
dun make anythng tat u will regret later...
*the end*

i was captivated...
by the story i guess...eventho its kinda boring at first,but its meningfull...
but then she ask me `did tat story related to wat u're thingkng now?'
i lied n i said..NO
SHE SMILE....n said to me tat..

WE WILL FACES MANY UPS N DOWN IN OUR LIFE..
BUT TATS WAT MAKES US STRONGER...
IF SUM1 HURT U,DUN EVER HATE THEM....
BECAUSE WE DUN HAF D RIGHT TO....
LEARN TO FORGIVE N FORGET..NOT JUST FORGIVE...BECAUSE LATER
U WILL DO THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN...
IF U FEEL SAD N LONELY..PRAY TO GOD...HE WILL GIVE U HAPPINESS N LOVE ANYTYM U WAN IT TOO...
SO DONT FILL OUR HEART WIT HATRED...FILL IT WITH LOVE...
WE R NOT THE GUD 1...BUT WE R THE SINFULL 1..N TATS Y WE HAF TO PRAY TO GOD TO SET OUR MINDS AND HEARTS FREE..
SO TAT WE CAN LOVE OTHER PEOPLE UNCONDITIONALLY...

n there she goes...goin back into the class...
leave me wit tans of questions in my head..
HOW DID SHE NOE WAT IM THINKING TAT TYM..are u a mind reader??!
but then i came to realise....
omg....my prayers being answered!!!
he finally sent tis person to guide me...n draw me closer to him...
cos tats wat i owez asking for...A GUARDIAN ANGEL TO SHOW ME THE WAY...TO BE A BETTER PERSON IN LYF.......thnx M...
thanks god...`

*HALLELUYAH*