post mortem

despite of all the madness in my house..
im still enjoying my xmas day..
=)

xmas eve

spending my nyt goin to church..
eventho im trying to focus on my prayers..i still cant..coz im rily tired...
standing for 1 hour in my heels..
gosh! its killing me..
after goin bek home for xmas eve dinner ..
bf goin bek wit me...
so happy to c tat hes goin along wit my dad nicely..
they even cerita hantu until he forgt wat tym isst already

anyhow i ody getting my right tragus pierced..
painfull...
but im satisfied..=)

he giv me a present...
something tat show me he wana own me forever...
o wonder hes actig kinda weird in the car..
actually he dno how togive me the presnt...
he wana make it a suprise..
so he kip ask me to read the sign on my left..so tat he can pull it out from the box..
haha
funny ow u b...
lastly,he just simply told me to come near him coz he got sumthing to give...
n it happen just like tat..=)
i.d.care bout the presnt syg,
having u spending ur tym with me is more then enuf =)


=)
bout my ring..yah..he make me wore it again...
i just lL tis guy so much..
al of him..the bad or the gud 1...

goin to bed...
wishing u ol...
merry xmas 2010

things getting a lil bit better then before..but im stil refused to c u...
its like im trying to learn accepting u agen...trust me..its never been easyfor me not to talk to u...or even spent a day without u..
coz ever since im here..u never let me do anythng by myself...
u olwes being so worried...

theres sumthng happend between us tiz few days..
n its quite miserable for me...but wat to do? were not a perfect couple didnt we..so no worries...
its still acceptable for both of us...
fils like i just wana go n leave u...
but tats not wat it shud be....
i noe u made a big mistake...but its not like i never did it before...
so i dun wana judge u...
i guess its a karma for me...
but ol of tis makes me understnd u more...

its funny how tis problems teach me sumthng...
ol tis tym ive been really busy....
i left u alone wen u really nid me back there....
but its not wat i wan too syg,im studying....
n i now how much u hurt wen u noe tat im movng to slgor for studying..
still rembr wen u cried...looks kinda whimpy to me..but who cares kan syg?

i just wana hug u wen u in need..n tell u tats evrythngs gona be owkay...
i understnd tat u do it bcoz u felt alone...
but i dun blame u all along dear...it takes 2 person to make sumthng happens....
i just hope she wont do it agen...


am i hurt? of coz i do...but i learn to live with it
so tat i'll be strong...n not give up
im looking up to 1 exmple...---> chy2
no matter whos trying to chase her man away, she still standing there...
not leaving even for a sec...
so do i...
im gona defend WAT IS MINE....


u told me that u love me..
of koz i cnt blif it 100% owdy..
but i noe u do...
ol tis tym u've been treated me like a princess wen im around..
but its not wat i wan..
i just wana be with u forever...

during our convstn last nyt...
i still can feel the tense in my words...
but u shud live with it...
i may b gentle towards u...but i cant let ur stupid act destroy our relationship...
u haf to accept it wen i refused to talk ,c or kiss u...


like u said..it means nothing btwen u n her...
coz u only find her wen u feel bored n alone...
i dont buy it fully..jus a lil bit of it..coz i noe u feel empty without me..
BUT I STILL WANA LET U NOE TAT IT WAS WRONG OK?
n im hapy tat u came to realise it n pmis tat u wana chnge it..
i'll only blif it wen u prove it..
but i'll help u...we go thru it 2gther ok syg?


i L you
lets start a new chapter in our lyf...

forgiveness~~

lot things happen,
but stil im here,
not leaving u....
coz i just noe tat iLyou so much...
i cant bare to lose our 2yrs rltnship for sum silly things...

to you girl...
im so happy tat u wana help me by being honest
honestly...its really hurt me to noe tat u lyn him wen he ask u to do ol tat silly things...
i tot u were matured enuf to ignore him
but who am i to prevent u 2 contacting each other...


btw..i forgive u...
i really do...
there no reason for me to hate u just bcoz u of tat..
n i dun blame u for evrythng..
coz i noe he took part in it also...
n i feel sory for u coz he kip blaming u for evrythng...
but atleast i noe whos right kan?
i just pray tat u can go thru ur probs wit *theguy* =)
i noe u luf him so much...
go and grab the chance..
dun end up like me k?
may GBU olwesss

n to you LVS :
y u acting like a jerk sumtym?
wen u find her did u even tink bout my feelings?
its really hurt me to noe tat u still layan wen the msg comes...
coz u ody swear to me...
actually i dun blame u...maybe im too far from u
n u nid sum1 to accompany u wen im not there
du treat people like tat k...
dun give them false hope..
dun break their hearts...
stop acting silly!
but i do apcte wen u admit tat u were wrong..
wen u told me EVERYTHNG....
(evndore its hurt to noe the truth)
but u said its just for a game..
wat were u thnkg?!!!
u tot ol girls can easily being played?
stop it k!
i noe u r reading tis!

today u really learnt ur lesson ryt?
but honstly...i cant trust u like bfre anymore..
u nid to pay for it!
earn my trust step by step...
i cnt recovered tat fast!

but i stil L you...
i owez do
plus this is not the baddest thng tat ever happen to us...
not evry1 can c us happy...
but stil we hold on kan?
then dont ruin it..
but if u both still wana continue it,then up to u k?
i just can like sum1 1 tym,
so dun mke me hate u..
coz it will be forever..
as a matter of fact..IVE NEVER being unfaithfull..
so dun u started it!

i FORGIVE u too...
make me wear tat ring again..
coz i wont wear it till u make me trust u agen..

for u its not fair for me to blif just 1 side..
i dont...
i dun even blif it 100%..
i just noe u lied...

but i still love u...
n people might tink im stupid..
but i cant lose sum1 i really love for the 2nd tym..
in fact..
i cant hide the fact tat u love me so much
its just ur addiction...
u cant bare to be alone..
u nid sum1 to acmpny u..
but its not a gud reason for ur lie's..


i will try to forgive u..
just bcoz ive done the same thng bfre..
but atleast i came to relise it..
who am i to judge u babe?
i just noe i L you...


xoxoxo

xmas mode

i cant wait for xmas..
cant u plis hurry up?~~~~

but y everything seem so ridiculous now..
n the fact tat i dun haf enuf slip last nyt making me a lil bit exhausted n mo0dy-mode
my neck is killing me..feels like im sliping on a stone last nyt..
urghhh!
y cant u be nice to me mr.pillow?!





i was thinking bout getting my right tragus pierced..
since the left 1fully recovered..
its like im addicted to the pain..
stupid!
shudnt felt tat way..
but tats the fact..

hopefully can get it done b4 im going bek..


nothing much to do...
just getting my mani &pedi done..
but still i'll be goin to joan sis shop for xmas m&p..






gtg,
xoxoxo

~LVS~

"If someone truly loves you, distance is not a problem. It's just the power of making love grow each day."

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Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, or mising you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miz..


Distance is the test of our love, if we survive it,it means tat we are going to be forever
coz The test of love is not when we are together......
It comes when we are not together
and realize that despite the distance, love is still there...
So The few hours I spend with you here..are worth the thousand hours I spend without you b...

I know when I leave.. the distance will keep us apart again..
But no matter how far, it still can't change these feelings i haf for u syg...

sumhow,its a great reminder of just how strong true love can be...
i love eu
LVS

iCHANGE

hate the fact tat im gona say goodbye to this hair..
but im done with the long hair,
im off to the shorts..=)