mine =)

its 8.05 pm now..keep waiting for his msg..aduiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..i hate this situation...

will be lonely for 8 dayssssssssss..

20 jan 2012 :

got funny things happend after he fetch me from the airport tat evening..

it was my fault...being childish until suffocating each other lungs..

till i almost get lost in a mall..

hes texting,looking for me..i didnt answer..

hoping for him to come n look for me..

but last2 i end up shopping alone..

but we sort things out tat nyt..ilysm

*sorry bbb* sob~sob

going out tat nyt with his frenz..

BED

doesnt have much fun since its almost close when we arrived there..

back home n sleep...zzzz

21 jan 2012:

going bek to keningau the next day..

n im staying at his house since my family arent coming bek from LD vacay yet..

same routine everytime im here..

we will go eat~watch movies~goin out~sleep

never get tired of this..i just love doin everything with him.

22 jan 2012:

goin breakfast with his friends tat morning..

i remember being super hungry,but the waiter keep sending our food one by one..

funny..but im hungry then i guess its annoying.

goin to Tenom on 6 pm..

makan besar with him n his whole family...

seeing his popo tat nyt..

hes whispering * macam muka popo jaychou kan????* LOL..

hes trying to make me calm down alilbit i guess..thnx bb

after dinner hes on for Judi-mode

i let him spending his time with his cousins n family..

while im stuck with this lil boy name johnny...from my bf side..

his mum told me that he dun usually get used to someone that he didnt knew...

haha..its proven that i can be a good babysittarzzzzz oneday..

few hours past..im getting really slippy oredy but he stil gambling with his fam..

keep asking him *pulang~pulang~pulang*

10++pm

goin bek to kilang..

but hes goin out...

then i stay at his home alone..

mandi air limau n then im goin to sleep..

12.05 am..

firecrackers everywhere..

goin out n c his fam playing with FC with his dady holding an umbrella *its raing k*

i just realised that hes not goin home yet..

luckily hes helping his koko fetching his gf bek kilng..

if not im gona explode fr sure...

almost 2am..hes coming bek..

been open my eyes for 2 mints..

look at him..reminding him about tat mandi air limau thing n ZZZZZ

waking up the next day..hes there =)

23 jan 2012:

GONG HEI FATT CHOI everybadiiiiiii..

waking up early coz we need to go to Tenom for CNY celebration.

on my way to taking my bath but the current is off..pnya rsakkkkk

no hot water for us...

getting done with my makeups n outfit..

waking him up..hes getting ready..n we go to Tenom right away..

waiting for the others to come..

main daun duluuuuuuuu!!!!

le bf n his cuzzy showing off bout their card tricks with me..

being bullied to pay rm10 just to learn the tricks..

but they end up teaching me neways..haha..

its camwhoring timeee..

families taking pict with popo first..

n then the real ceremny begins..hahahha

ang pao na laiiiiii....

i really enjoyed being unmarried..i just love getting my pocket full with the red packet..

spending the day with gambling, eating and gossiping..

were goin bek home for a bath on 2.30 pm...

but we end up having lunch with his frens since they only served vegan food at Tenom..

then go bek his home..

sleepinggg

waking up at 5pm n getting ready to go bek there for family dinner..

being there until 10pm when we finally decided to go bek kgu n goin yamcha with his fren..

home..

help him packing his bag..

playing changing outfits with his jacket for vacay

watching the sorcerer aprentice againnnn..

then we both go to slip...

24 jan 2012 :

waking up...

x haf the mood since hes goin to Japan today..

i rily wish i can go..T_T

everybody keep asking me y i dont wana go..

i want to..i just x haf a good luck this year since im getting a new trainer for my practical year..

n hes strict..

cant extend my cuti few more days..=(

the moment that he sent me home n kiss me..

n the moment when i automaticly hugging him..makes me felt really sad...

truk..but im truly weak when hes not around..

9.35 pm..

hes finally arrived at KLIA..

waitng for his next flight to Jpn..

im gona miss u syg!!!

i'll wait for u to come home..

safe trip..mgbu n ur fam always..

lotsa love

xoxoxo

san

its been 5 days sinced ive been here..
le hostel..
and in 13 days i'll be goin bek to sabah again,
LOL!!
i just hate this year...it supposed to bring me luck n prosperity sinced its my year, but it seems like ive been spending almost 2k just for my tix for this coming holidays..FFFFFFFFFFarKKKKKK!!!!!
this year cny wont be enjoying for me since i can only be with my staring for 4 days bfore they be leaving for Japan. *s**t!
i just hate the fact tat ive got this strict new trainer and i can even get an extra holidays to join them..

when his mum first told me about the vacay, i was like :

n then she told me its gonna be japan, and i was like :




*hell yeah*



but then she told me its on 24 - 31 jan,and i was like :





are u serious??


n then im thinking about the BEAVER, and i was like :




s**t!!!!!

maybe some other day..T_T
dissapointed but my studies always come first...its much more important !
bf teasing me bout me watching disneyland from KeheLLLL since i cant join em thre...
*seyesly sittttttttt!!!!*

btw,
thinking about goin bek to sabah on my bday
*10 -12 feb*
its a stupiak ideaaaaaa!!! but i loike it coz i never did something crazier for my bday!
will be buying the ticks.... (actually, i just did)
(*0*!) LOL!
then i guess...





yes!

ily

*i hate you*
-for making my life miserable on 2011
-for hurting me with ur attitude
-for making me sad n cry much more then before
-for every hurtfull thing that u have done to me.. (u noe wat ryt?)

*i forgive you*
for everything tat i mentioned above
for hurting me so badly until i almost give up on u
for making me cry

*i learn to *
trust u again
tink +ve always

*i miss *
waking up and c ur face
slipping noeing that u'll be hugging me all night long
`berebut' blanket with u
watching movies with u
gai2 with u n ur funny frens

*im happy*
that u man2 changed urself
always be patience with me
always siak2 me

*thank you*
for making my 1month holiday the happiest ever
giving me the most enjoying xmas n nuyear celebration
for letting me closed with ur sporting families
for spending time to get to noe my families
for everything that u gave to me




*i LOVE U*
no words can express how much iLy..
its almost 4 years now...only few months left..
last year bring me so much sadness..but i hope this year will bring us more luck n happiness..
sorry for kasi susah u sumtimes..
i noe i am stubborn like hell...
n my merajuk gaya rily makes u mad sumtimes...
sorry T_T
as years goes by..i've learnt that i rily syg u n i cant live without u...
no matter what other peeps say bout us i still x care bout it..
i apreciate every day that i can c u..coz every year we only can c each other during holidays..
im sorry b...
people always asked me y i still wana b with u..
but
nobody is perfect..
like u said...
i shud learn to let go of the past..
n now i finally decided to learnt from it,not live with it...
thanx..for waiting me this long to come back n c u..
maybe im not the one for u, but for me..u r the only one that i rily love this much
XOXOXOXOXO

who knew..

promise me anything, just make sure u r sober when u did tat..
i am a simple girl, u dont need maths to figured me out..
its obvious..
i believe everything so easily.
something happend.something big.
i expect big cooperation from u..
its not the first time, i knew we'll go thru this..
but y did i owez felt like im alone in everything that i do.
i hate seeing u like this.
i used to look up to u when something happend.but now where were u?
grow up!
i still need a MAN by my side after all..
things maybe rough sometimes, dont be so blurryyy..
wake up n help me find the way out.
i hate being the man in everything tat happend between us.
no more...
im so over it.u need to make a way now.figure things out.
try to solve it.
dont just sit there n wait for my decision.
i aint no Joan of arc..
i dont fight everything by myself..

be the one.fight for me.
dont keep giving me the same answer.
we sacrificed alot already, dont blame urself for everything that happend.
i wish i can talk to u.
dont set a wall between us.
i never knew until when i can stay.
but i'll promise u i'll fight for this.
and u?

anything happend, be there!
hold on!
then i'll stay.
just dont turn ur back on me.
i'll be strong for u..
u noe i always did..
but now its ur time...
dont let me walk away from u.

maybe things will get better ..
who knew..

i have faith.

helloo DECEMBER!

its been ages since i last updated my blog..ive been such a lazy dumb-ass this few months..
too many sad memories to be shared with ( which i need to let go off)

so its here,
december has arrived..
no offence but i hate it so much..i rily do -__-!
i love CHRISTmas ..i just hate the fact tt i'll be goin bek study-ing in..
(let me see..18 days left?? omg)
fyi,i havent mai the ticks yet, im soo gona be dead...

but im having a great holiday with my fam n bf.
spending most of the time together..
time passed us by sooo fast...
feels like i wana cry myself out...
i love it here..
i wish i can stay
*crossing finger*

disaster
tats exactly wat gonna happend next year.
believe me..
u'll end up reading me blog more often later.
btw : does beaver bites??

tired.sleepy.hungry (piggy mode)
i need some food to gain my energy.

will be seeing u guys any sooner,
merry xmas n happy new year in advance!

i'll c u ol soon then :
lotsa love
sandra

i will never forget you..
*ilysm*

p/s : tysm besties,laopos,frens,13 angels n bla..bla..bla..
(u noe who u r!!) im so blessed by having ALOT of frens who always be there for me...
n mostly love me for who i am!! *i dun need a mask *
<3

KUDAKU lari gagah berani .~~~~

Lotsa love xoxoxo

last 2 days was a gud day for me...
we've talked, n make a decision...
last 2 days tat i spent with u is the best day ever..
i can feel tat u chnge abit...
just a lil bit..
but its enuf 4 me

wen u told me tat u wana go to ur frens weds receiption, i just say yes..
coz i stil can enjoy myself wtchng mies at ur rum or fb-ing..
wen u go, n the past kip appears on my mind...
i text u with angry words...
n i ask u not to come back early coz i dun wana c ur face...
n tat i hate u so much...
til i lock ur own door n didnt let u in...

but stil u come back ur hum..
early then i tot u cud be...
knocking and asking me to open it..
n gave me a big soothing smile..=)
*ilysm*

tat nyt i cnt stop nagging bout the past..
kip asking u question over n over agen..
annoyed u with my mad attitude..
ignore ur sweet calls to me n act like ure not there...
but u did manage to be patient...
n told me to forgt it...
n tat u choose me rather then any1 else..
n tat u were sory fior wat u haf done..
n u wana chnge...
did i blif u?
yes..but not 100%...
*sorry*
i just wait n c ...

tis tym arguemnt is diffrent..
n4, u just ignore me n leave me alone crying..
but now u hug me n making alot of things to make me happy n forgt bput wat happend..
last nyt wen i told u tat i cudnt slip...
u told me tat u wil kip hugging me until i fall aslip..
u did..
*tysm b*

i tink its tym 4 me to let go bout ur past..
coz tats wat makes our rltnship more awful..
i shud be gratefull tat u wana chnge for me now...
n tat u began to show much u luf me step by step...
the way we hug each other to slip shows how much we luf n k bout each other..
i savour it!

tis mornig u ask me to move my clothes to ur hous..
n tat u wana share ur wardrobe with me...
u wana buy another toothbrush for me to use at ur rum..
so dat next tym i go bek i cn sty at ur rum anytym i wnt to..
tat shows a lil bit of commitmnt..=)
thnx dear..
n i will...

maybe 3 years is not long enuf to make other people proud of us..
but honestly...
after havng the gud n bad times mostly...with u thru ol tis years..
i began to apcte u more..
n i so hapy tat i dint give up on tis rltnship..
coz i just noe tat i never wana lose u...
ure mybe a monster..but inside ur heart..
u cnt deny tat u luf me so much til u wiling to do anythng 4 me..

i dun wait 4 sumthng gud to happen..
i just accept anythng tat cums fowrd aftr tis..
coz we've been on alot of harder probs b4..
i noe we cn do it...

for wat u asked me last nyt...my answer is
~ilymore~
thank u lo vun syn